The fight continues. I haven’t had much time to write or update this site but I am still here, making honest and earnest attempts at rolling this boulder uphill.
Having one published book apparently doesn’t do much. Especially when it’s on a topic like bankruptcy. Because like who cares about a comic book on bankruptcy? I get it. It’s not that sexy or exciting. But what can I say, it’s what I am compelled to do. So… she persisted! I have finally gotten my desk set up and this time permanently. Since starting this website I have really been here, there, and everywhere. But now I am home. Really home. The older I get the more I realize how little control I have over anything/everything that happens in my life. What little control I do have, so much effort is spent fighting my own laziness. Or wrestling with my short-comings and my own humanity.
The good news is I am back to writing — plan on finishing Torts in the next month or so! And then I hope to start a brand new topic. They say as an artist you should have a steady day job to support your artistic endeavours. It’s the only way to maintain a good balance. It took me a long time to understand this but I now utterly and completely I agree. I am more thankful than ever for my paid work. It gives me the confidence to keep going on my writing. I feel really lucky to finally be in a place where I love my work AND am be able to pursue my writing in my free time. It took so long to get here – to a place where I wake up excited about my day. Took a lot of trial and error a lot of heartache and pain, but it was all worth it and I am grateful. Even if this is barely the beginning and even if how decidedly unremarkable my writing is, I harbour great hopes that over time and space my work will improve.
By the end of 2020, I aim to have five books done. Even if no one is looking, I am responsible for being accountable to myself and my own goals. The Picture Book, Bankruptcy and Contracts are done (though Contracts needs editing). Torts is a little more than half-way and then book five. I am manifesting this to be a great year. Put it out in the world even if there’s so much negativity and the news is such a drag. I choose to remain optimistic. Chasing your dream is about showing up, no matter how hard. Just show up. I can do that.
This one is for especially for those those in my rat-pack.
Happy Rat year to all you beating hearts out there.